Cleaning out storage has brought me face to face with my stash…..my handspun stash. Years ago I took up spinning my own yarn. Yes….from a dirty sheep fleece to dyeing the spun yarn into skeins. Since I am a process knitter, it was the process that interested me, not necessarily the product. It was a skill I learned until other interests took hold….or rather drew me back into knitting purchased wool. So my handspun stash hibernated in plastic bags in my storage crying out every once in awhile to “Knit me, knit me”.
So now, I have these many plastic bins of handspun yarn. I didn’t think I had enough of the same type of yarn to make anything big. Since knitting the Rainbow mitered blanket again, I wondered how it would look to knit one in handspun. Small amounts of different colors and breeds did not matter. So I started one. I am thinking that I can make small throw blanket or lap robes to give to charity. Even if someone mistakenly felts them, they would make some fair rugs or dog/cat blankets. So now I have a new charity project. Yet, knitting it gives me some satisfaction and purpose in this world.
I’m still struggling with finding my role in this world without a partner, but as long as I have my home to love, my son to keep me company, and a job to keep the bills paid, I am somewhat content. Finding “Peace” in decorating my home and my knitting brings me joy. Someone said that “Joy doesn’t just happen. You have to choose Joy and keep choosing it every day.” There are days this is easier said than done but for now I am at peace.